i hate it when this happens.

So which one is more important if both is no lt possible. Ones self happiness or the happiness of others(friends). Also are they truly friends if they would block something that could make me happier. But would i be friend being self and going for it when i know there would dissapprove and be hurt by it.

It really suck. I think simply it seems right and make sense. Thinking simply would he for myself. Now once i come back into reality and think of my friends and the way they think and feel it almost feela wrong amd that it would be hurting them.

But i want both and i know that cant happen here. I will need to make a choice of who side i am on or to stay in the middle. Also idk if i am i. The middle i believe i have picked a side with wanting to say it. Ugh. Why are ppl stupid and hold hatefully feelings towards ppl it is stupid.

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umm what i night :D D:

First i thought i was called into work so i cancelled the hangout at splitsville. Turns out the person that called in decided he would make it so i didn't need too come in. Well okay so the few people that were going to chill i was like lets go to Joes and make it an Anime night haven't done that in some time.

Well it was fun i got to Joe's at sevenish and Aaron around 7:30 Sammie also texted me around then to see her and Care could come to the hang out thing. We said sure... I said sure. so After telling them use google maps to find joes house. They were like can u meet use somewhere. i was like sure u choose a place. They picked Tims close to joes house. Which is cool they said they be an hourish. After that i texted Chels to see when she was coming and she said where does joe live again. Gave her the address and she is like i am on my way.

First i don't mind Care coming along but i know there is problems with her and Chels and thats why she wasn't invited cause Chels was. So anyways Chels came before Sammie and Care. Afte a couple texts from sammie saying how they will be late and they are waiting on buses. We went to tims to wait for them. Well after i called them they asked to talk to Chels. After she got on the phone a few secs later all i heard was WHY ARE YOU HERE?

Well after that she gave me my phone and was like they are behind tims. So she went to meet them after walking around tims she was confused and i was like where are they. She is like idk. So i called them and we found out they were near the bowling alley. Then i saw Quinn and noticed Chels was asking him why he was here. xD
Anyways Quinn left and Care, Sammie and Chels came with me to meet up with joe and Aaron. After that we got pizza, which some how sammie and care didn't get one even tho i put money in for them :c. I am sorry i put money forward to for you guys. Not sure what happened After that we picked up Narcy from work and went back to joes.

The next hour after waiting 3 hours on Care and sammie where them ignoring us and leaving the room. Aaron offered them some of his pizza i was going to but i gave half to Narcy. so anyways after a bit sammie texted me saying Care wasn't feeling well and they were going to leave so i was like ok it was nice to see u again. Well yeah then they got Chels to come with them. I see well it turns out that they went back to quinn's and Care was fine. -.- Not like we waited for u. Not like i got bitched out because i invited you. not like i was like chill its they can come.

Yeah then i get burned thanks guys. In all fairness to Chels she didn't know. I am sure she didn't want to leave. Since she told me that. she wanted to see Gillis and chill like old times. But sammie and Care didn't let that.

The night ended with Gillis treating us to tim hortons been there enough times xD. Now i got to get up in like 6 hours for a parade and i am tired i am going to sleep. In gen it was a good night.

So am i hypocritical

So i am a very social person and i get along with most people. I like the fact i can easily get along with people and like most people i like it when i get attention. Yet i hate people and society itself. I turn on my music and put on my headphones and walk down the street to avoid people. If someone stops me to ask me something all i can think is your a fucking dumb ass i have headphones on and i am looking away from u. Like why don't u ask someone else. Like i hate dealing with people and talking to most people. I only like talking to a few people.