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Now is just like every time and know just like then I am hurt. Now feeling worthless and untrusting of others; that I want to trust. you do you do this. Better question why do i let you knowing whats going to happen, I jump for it hoping it will be different. but every time no matter how much time passes it ends the same.... I just want you to know I love you and once you how much I care and that no one is like me. That I am right here. That I have gone though so much for you and will go though so much more. Maybe I will find someone else and they will realize what they have. They will make me happy they way you can. They say you have three great women in my life and I know your one of them. Which means I have two more but I don`t know if I want them. Or at least i don`t want them right now. Cause for some crazy reason i still believe in you. I still want you. Even though all you have done in the end is hurt me. The moments you have made me smile and happy mean so much more. I just want to get this off my chest maybe I will feel better, maybe this will help me move on. Once again all i want you to know is that i love you Corrine and that you have impacted my life in such a massive way. Just wish you could fully understand.

110 but like that matters right

anyways in answer to my last blog post i was right. we are dating and it is going to suck cause i can't see her until like next week cause i work weds to sunday and like i could ask her to hang tomorrow. but like i seen her the past 3 days so i don't want to sound clinging and like annoying. but at the same time seeing her at cadets sucks cause we are both like super busy and like can't talk and at cadets we can't show anything anyways. so yeah

why.. i don't understand.

Ok this blog post could be too early for me to rant. but i need to vent so too bad.

So for people who read this and know me. You guys know that i really liked Corrine and she is the only person i have given a second chance to. But it didn't turn out well i was favoring and she liked someone else. YET it has come back again. that we like each other. I am willing to give her another shot. WHY... i don't understand. I never give second changes she was the first and now she is the first to get a third. Like do i love her? i really don't know. All i want to do when i am around her is hold her. keep her close and talk about anything. But the fact has not changed she hurt me the first time and the second time i kinda was like its not going to happen and i was into Kayla more and Corrine was into Jared more. so how will this third time play out. like ugh. i get to see her tomorrow and i said we need to talk. since she text me saying how she wanted to kiss me. after we were like semi cuddling. IDK. thats why this blog is early cause after i talk to her tomorrow hopefully i will know whats going on

College

Well yesterday Dec 1st, i went to my coop seminar and got to see a whole bunch of people. Which is nice, the seminar itself was funny since i kinda just left and didn't do work. since i don't need too. I went to guidance and got some green or yellow paper idk. Either way it ended with me applying for college. So i applied at Mohawk college, the fennel campus for pretech. why pretech cause i was lazy in high school and didn't grab grade 12 math xD. Oh well it will shorten my second year when i start computer engineering cause i will already have a lot of the credits. Besides i never do things the easy way anyways. if it will talk longer hopefully i will learn more. Since i am not a genius or smart. I have to work hard for everything. so maybe longer the better.

Then i went to work 4 to cl(11) and Nathan was working. Always fun because we have the must fucked convos. This time it was about how we need to blow up A&W, we were planning it out then your supervisor walked by and was like WTF. SO yeah is A&W blows up i am sure Nathan and i will be to blame. We also were talking about an magnetic car system. that you have cars made out of light material and only the plates are metal and have a magnet to pull the car. There were alot of flaws and we decided that the light power pod idea was better.