So it has come to this...

Title really means nothing, lol just always wanted to say that. http://xkcd.com/1022/


Now, Haley is gone and so is almost all my stuff. I don't really care though. When i tell someone what happened they ask me why didn't i take her to court, why did i let them take my stuff, why didn't i do this, or why did i do that. Its simple i don't care. Everything she took as a material object. It can all be replaced. In the big picture i lost nothing. I still have my apartment if i want it, i have my family and friends around me, and i still have me job. What have a lost, the answer nothing with real value. What has me mad, even after i let her live there for free. yes meaning i paid for everything. She has the nerve to talk bad about me on facebook. what a bitch, not only did she try to talk shit about me on facebook she had to remove me as a friend first. Yeah bitch i watched porn on your laptop, fuck that. i have my own laptop plus i was dating you and working all the time. i would like to know when i had the chance too. Since you basically hung around my damn neck. Grow the fuck up. Honestly the only time i used your laptop was to do virus and malware checks for you cause of all the shit you download. Since we broke up no one has been checking your computer so no wonder it crashed. Grow up thats it. your gone from my life and so is your family have got to bitch at A&W once your done. Leave me alone, don't talk about me, talk to me, or anything. I am happy that you are wrong and out of my life Haley.


So i guess there is no point in hiding it since your going to read this and know this part is about you, I am glad that your part of my life again. I missed you and still care for you. Blogger was the only way i was able check up with you. since i only post here and there i am still out of the loop. I am happy that your continuing with post secondary although i am sad that your not in the area. When your here we do need to hang out and i hope things turn out well. As long as you want too i will not turn on you. We have gone through it before. I will always stand by your side.

LMFAO one paragraph is all hate and like i want this bitch out of my life and i am glad she is out. The other is about how i am happy i have this person back in my life.

Last thing i need to decide is do i keep the apartment or not.

Start Over

So, its bit awhile hasn't blogger. How has my life been since my last post well its almost been a year. If i were to fill you in on every little thing this might take awhile. So lets just do some highlights.

Family:

  - My parents are doing well and are looking into buying a house and moving out of the co-op i grew up in. It will be nice to see them owning their own place instead of just renting something.

-My sisters:

  -Andrea( or Andy) is doing well last year of high school and looks like she will be graduating. She has two jobs. One at Tim hortons and the other at Booster juice. Booster juice has offered her a promotion to supervisor or manger if she leaves Tim Hortons. But it is up to her.

   -Nakia is just about to start High school. So young, to be that age again. She spent her summer at a Cadet summer training camp. She enjoyed it. I think she enjoys the money more tho.

-My brother:
 
  - William moving up another grade. He turns 12 in feb and then he will be joining Cadets as well.

School:

   - Not much as been done on this. I still want to go to school. But working and relationship shit plus living on your own makes it hard. Still my goal to go though.

Work:

   - Work has been going pretty well. I have been promoted twice. From crew to Team leader and team leader to Supervisor. Next step for my is Manger then GM. Where i can save money and go to school and leave fast food hopefully. They have sent me to a new location. Which is closer to my place.

Relationship:

   -Well Haley and I Dated for 1 year and 7 months. Living together for a year and a month. It been full of ups and down. But on Aug 16/12 Her and I broke up. It was all the little things that finally broke me down. We never really talked about anything important or had a deep conversions. She was happy if i hugged her and laughed at her dump jokes. They were bad. Every once and awhile she had a good one tho.  We really didn't have much in common. Interests wise, personal traits we had a lot of similar negative ones. The laziness, lying, and much. But the difference is i am changing that or at least trying. She never did the little cleaning things. The apartment is always a mess cause she will get to it later. But if i try and clean i get yelled at its my job to clean. Fuck just do it then. After a year she finally gets a job. She only works like one shift a week. They try and call her in and she says no. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK i work 42 hours a weeks. you work fucking 6 and a half. Grab the fucking shift and make a little more money so you can help out. Did you think i was going to pay for everything for ever.  I don't know how many times she has lied to me but i caught her on two big ones. First was school, she lied about going to class and so on. I knew she was lying but i figured the more i make a big deal about her grad the more she will try in school.... well i was wrong. I dropped over three bills on it and she failed and the only reason she told me was cause she got tickets and it would be hard to tell everyone not to go to her grad for no reason. The second one was after we broke up. She is still living here cause she has no family in the city. So being the nice guy i am gave her a month to move out. Well that changed when i figured out she already likes another guy and she had the fucking balls to bring him back to my apartment. She didn't know i knew that she liked him and shit. but yeah we got into a fight about that where she lived to me over and over again. So she has to be out by this sunday now. She wants us to be together then why the fuck is she looking for another guy, fuck that. After that fight she talked to him all night. He can have her, good luck man and enjoy my sloppy seconds.  But yeah over all i was unhappy and i can't wait for her to leave now.


Apartment:

    - Well Since Haley and I broke up ^. She is taking her shit and leaving. Which kinda sucks cause the:
        -Bedroom set
        -47" flat screen tv
        -Coffee table
        -China cabet
        -bookself
        -pot ware & dish ware
        -PS3
        -entertainment stand
        -lazyboy chair
        -The other chairs
        -card table
Are all hers. Now how did she afford all of this. When she turned 18 she got 20K, I told her that she could do what she wants with it. Although i suggested and told her what i would do is save it and maybe spend max 5K. She blew it all in 2-3 months.

   So this is where the "start over" comes in the next couple of months will be me and my roommate rebuilding the apartment. saving some money up and buying the things we need and so on.  I wouldn't want it any other way cause i don't want to fight for this shit, i want her gone so she can take it and leave. i have no problem rebuilding.


So yeah, Its a fresh start.

Family should be understandable, i have two days off a week. In those two days i need to try and have a social life, spend time with my girlfriend, pay bills, try and visit my parents, my grandparents, and Haley's grandparents. Plus you know sleep and there is transportation and getting grocery and house work. Get the people giving me that hardest time is my family i get 48 hours a week to do all that. the rest of the week i am working 9 hour shifts (overnight) then sleeping. To top it all off when i do get visit my family all they want to do is lecture me and question what Haley and I are doing and your plans. -end rant

Visit

So i am going to see my parents for the first real visit. I don't know how its going to go but we will see i guess.

Life update

Sooo its beeen way tooo long since i have posted something. Lets get started then, so reflecting on my last post Nicole and i are still not friends and i dont think thats going to.change. I owe her $70 cause the hotel fucked up how many days i said i was staying. So thats her part back. I am going to give it to her first when i have it and when i have time since i work almost 44 hours a week on overnight. Plus hold a social life kinda, dealing with bills, relationship, family, and sleep.

So as i mentioned bills thats right i got my apartment. Took long enough. But yeah it did set back school. I have to wait until haley gets a job or welfare and i can get on osap. Before i think about college. Which sucks cause i want to go. I miss school as funny as that sounds i like being busy.

The job at A&W yeah that title fuck it they wouldn't give it to me because i am on nights. But i asked to be on days aslong as i can get the hours. I was even willing to do nights and days. Which sucks cause i was doing that for a bit. But yeah you do what you gotta do right. Although i might get a job at best buy i got to bug the guy(Justin) tomorrow to see if the GM there is going to call me. I hope they do cause best buy is starting pay $15 an hour and benefits.

Joe and i might become friends again if i can push pride aside and say i am sorry. I miss the kid as a friend even if he is an wreck sometimes.

Where to start

The title says it all. I am so messed up in my life right now. Just as i was pulling it all together too. I guess i should have seen this coming i always fuck it up some how. Lets start with Nicole, an awesome person and was one of my closest friends. I even helped her get a boy she liked when i was crushing over her. But whatever that is not that point here. I fucked up at anime north and i did things i should have done when her and her boyfriend where still there. The fucked up person i am couldn't wait. It was wrong of me and fucked up i know. For the night you had to sit through i am sorry. I wish i could take it back. Cause of that one night i have lost Nicole. She was a great friend and i am sorry for messing up. I hope you can get over your past and challenges in your our character to do the things you want do in life. Never give up on things. I still haven't given up on our friendship but we do need a break or this will get worse.


The next thing is that at work there is a position available for team leader which is just before supervisor. Now i wasn't sure i was going to go for it cause i wanted to keep my night shift. But then i was thinking i need to move forward in life i can't just stop where i am and need to you up until i have out grown it or surpassed it. Whatever the case my be. So i am the first one to have the interview done and i don't know how long it will take for them to choose. They wont give me a hint on how well i did. I know i messed up on the last question but i know the right answer now and i would go by it. oh well i guess what happens happens.


This one kinda ties in with the last point. But i am putting off college until the semester cause i have to get a apartment for Haley and I since her family is planing on going to north bay for a job and she doesn't want to go. She has moved to much in her life and her family is too chaotic. People have no idea how raw a person is when they are in high school and how much stress is in high school alone. Parents treat you like shit cause they feel like you doing nothing. where for school each class things they are most important and you get stupid homework. Then there is your social a life with drama on its only level and if you work there more time gone which your parents nor you teachers would understand for some reason. So yeah i love Haley and i gave her a choice you can stay with your family then you would be leaving me. Which is fine i understand that. It is her family like i wouldn't stand in her way, all i want is for her to be happy. or i told her i would but my life on pause and get a apartment for her and I. After that i would go to college part time and get osap since i would be by "myself" in Mohawks eyes since i would be the only one paying the bill for a bit. Cause of that i would be accepted for OSAP.

The pressure of getting an apartment at my age and with school, social problems and all that and on top of that money problems in i owe money as it is. i have to give a grand to the bank for my visa. So yeah i am stressed out a bit i keep a smile when i can and i work through it all.

random story i read and made me laugh

A woman in a hot air balloon realized she was lost. She reduced altitude and spotted a man below. She descended a bit more and shouted: "'Excuse me, can you help me? I promised a friend I would meet him an hour ago but I don't know where I am".
The man below replied "You're in a hot air balloon hovering approximately 30 feet above the ground. You're between 40 and 41 degrees north latitude and between 59 and 60 degrees west longitude". "You must be an mechanic" said the balloonist. "I am" replied the man "how did you know?"
"Well," answered the balloonist, "everything you have told me is probably technically correct, but I've no idea what to make of your information and the fact is, I'm still lost. Frankly, you've not been much help at all. If anything, you've delayed my trip with your talk."
The man below responded "You must be in management". "I am" replied the balloonist, "but how did you know?" "Well," said the man "you don't know where you are or where you're going. You have risen to where you are, due to a large quantity of hot air. You made a promise, which you've no idea how to keep, and you expect people beneath you to solve your problems. The fact is you are in exactly the same position you were in before we met, but now, somehow, it's my fucking fault."