Family should be understandable, i have two days off a week. In those two days i need to try and have a social life, spend time with my girlfriend, pay bills, try and visit my parents, my grandparents, and Haley's grandparents. Plus you know sleep and there is transportation and getting grocery and house work. Get the people giving me that hardest time is my family i get 48 hours a week to do all that. the rest of the week i am working 9 hour shifts (overnight) then sleeping. To top it all off when i do get visit my family all they want to do is lecture me and question what Haley and I are doing and your plans. -end rant

Visit

So i am going to see my parents for the first real visit. I don't know how its going to go but we will see i guess.

Life update

Sooo its beeen way tooo long since i have posted something. Lets get started then, so reflecting on my last post Nicole and i are still not friends and i dont think thats going to.change. I owe her $70 cause the hotel fucked up how many days i said i was staying. So thats her part back. I am going to give it to her first when i have it and when i have time since i work almost 44 hours a week on overnight. Plus hold a social life kinda, dealing with bills, relationship, family, and sleep.

So as i mentioned bills thats right i got my apartment. Took long enough. But yeah it did set back school. I have to wait until haley gets a job or welfare and i can get on osap. Before i think about college. Which sucks cause i want to go. I miss school as funny as that sounds i like being busy.

The job at A&W yeah that title fuck it they wouldn't give it to me because i am on nights. But i asked to be on days aslong as i can get the hours. I was even willing to do nights and days. Which sucks cause i was doing that for a bit. But yeah you do what you gotta do right. Although i might get a job at best buy i got to bug the guy(Justin) tomorrow to see if the GM there is going to call me. I hope they do cause best buy is starting pay $15 an hour and benefits.

Joe and i might become friends again if i can push pride aside and say i am sorry. I miss the kid as a friend even if he is an wreck sometimes.

Where to start

The title says it all. I am so messed up in my life right now. Just as i was pulling it all together too. I guess i should have seen this coming i always fuck it up some how. Lets start with Nicole, an awesome person and was one of my closest friends. I even helped her get a boy she liked when i was crushing over her. But whatever that is not that point here. I fucked up at anime north and i did things i should have done when her and her boyfriend where still there. The fucked up person i am couldn't wait. It was wrong of me and fucked up i know. For the night you had to sit through i am sorry. I wish i could take it back. Cause of that one night i have lost Nicole. She was a great friend and i am sorry for messing up. I hope you can get over your past and challenges in your our character to do the things you want do in life. Never give up on things. I still haven't given up on our friendship but we do need a break or this will get worse.


The next thing is that at work there is a position available for team leader which is just before supervisor. Now i wasn't sure i was going to go for it cause i wanted to keep my night shift. But then i was thinking i need to move forward in life i can't just stop where i am and need to you up until i have out grown it or surpassed it. Whatever the case my be. So i am the first one to have the interview done and i don't know how long it will take for them to choose. They wont give me a hint on how well i did. I know i messed up on the last question but i know the right answer now and i would go by it. oh well i guess what happens happens.


This one kinda ties in with the last point. But i am putting off college until the semester cause i have to get a apartment for Haley and I since her family is planing on going to north bay for a job and she doesn't want to go. She has moved to much in her life and her family is too chaotic. People have no idea how raw a person is when they are in high school and how much stress is in high school alone. Parents treat you like shit cause they feel like you doing nothing. where for school each class things they are most important and you get stupid homework. Then there is your social a life with drama on its only level and if you work there more time gone which your parents nor you teachers would understand for some reason. So yeah i love Haley and i gave her a choice you can stay with your family then you would be leaving me. Which is fine i understand that. It is her family like i wouldn't stand in her way, all i want is for her to be happy. or i told her i would but my life on pause and get a apartment for her and I. After that i would go to college part time and get osap since i would be by "myself" in Mohawks eyes since i would be the only one paying the bill for a bit. Cause of that i would be accepted for OSAP.

The pressure of getting an apartment at my age and with school, social problems and all that and on top of that money problems in i owe money as it is. i have to give a grand to the bank for my visa. So yeah i am stressed out a bit i keep a smile when i can and i work through it all.

random story i read and made me laugh

A woman in a hot air balloon realized she was lost. She reduced altitude and spotted a man below. She descended a bit more and shouted: "'Excuse me, can you help me? I promised a friend I would meet him an hour ago but I don't know where I am".
The man below replied "You're in a hot air balloon hovering approximately 30 feet above the ground. You're between 40 and 41 degrees north latitude and between 59 and 60 degrees west longitude". "You must be an mechanic" said the balloonist. "I am" replied the man "how did you know?"
"Well," answered the balloonist, "everything you have told me is probably technically correct, but I've no idea what to make of your information and the fact is, I'm still lost. Frankly, you've not been much help at all. If anything, you've delayed my trip with your talk."
The man below responded "You must be in management". "I am" replied the balloonist, "but how did you know?" "Well," said the man "you don't know where you are or where you're going. You have risen to where you are, due to a large quantity of hot air. You made a promise, which you've no idea how to keep, and you expect people beneath you to solve your problems. The fact is you are in exactly the same position you were in before we met, but now, somehow, it's my fucking fault."

Tumblr

Tumblr is soo freaking stupid. People think they are blogging by stealing other peoples photos. NO that is not Blogging, idk what to call it. There is wordpress.com it is a blog, there is blogger, this is a blog. I am sure there is thousands more. A blog is where u write about what you want in feel detail and depth. not a something that is like a twitter post and comes with a stupid picture.

response to Haley

So this is a blog post in response to Haley's http://hu4lbaby-haley.blogspot.com/2011/01/stronger-better-greater.html

Haley i can say thing same thing over and over again. I wake up in the morning and my first thought is of you, as i lay down at night before i go to sleep my last thought is of you. You are beautiful in my eyes. Your new to a relationship with a guy like me so it seems. I wish your past boyfriends cared for you like i did. so that you could find it easier to open up. Thats okay i make you happy and thats important. Although you make me forget about my past and look forward to what lies ahead. Every time we are together we grow, we become closer and we learn. Just like you i am glad we took the chance to move forward. Together <3