Tuesday, January 11, 2011

OK now that is done

So now that i finished that post i said i would i have other stuff to blog about so i can now, :) yay

So we all know i am moving on from my past relationship with Corrine and i saw her yesterday at cadets and i was fine. (y) So i am good, i can control my emotions or maybe i have finally moved on idk. but either way i am good and it didn't hurt me to see her.

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Even better is I told Haley how i was still hung up on my ex and all that and she was like you need to move on and so on. She asked me out and i was like i don't think i am ready but i am willing to see you and see how it goes. She agreed to that. But i enjoy being around her and she is so far making me happy and making me feel important. Its a new feeling i tend to like. so i think i am going to go steady with her (Y).

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Coop is almost over and i am happy, coop has just been so bad this year omg. I dread going to it every morning and then going to work. I can't wait until it is done and i can be sleep in a bit and work full time until sept.
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Then there is the apartment.... Narcy is not sure if he can do it now. Like he will come out in march but he is not sure if he can in sept cause if he gets into a recent university. With out Narcy Eric is like i can't make rent blah blah blah. so the solution is the Narcy and i get a one bedroom instead and rent that until Eric comes in sept. See who goes to school where and find out who is staying in the apartment. I need to start looking around but still i need to wait until like feb doing it now is still to early.
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I hate getting ask to buy stuff and random bills coming in when they feel like it. like if i buy u make the bill come that day i shouldn't have to wait 3 days to see the charge on my visa >.>

SEVEN MOTHER FUCKING SINS

Alright to start off i have done a piece on this before. Although it was me explain what i thought the sin was and how it reflected on a relationship. http://doms-blogthing.blogspot.com/2010/08/problem.html

Now this time i want to compare the old sins and the modern sins. Cause though out time they have changed. Not going to lie i wanted more time to do this but i want to blog about other things but i said this was going to be my next blog post so bare with me.

Extravagance/lust:
Extravagance was the original name for the sin. the meaning behind the word was extravagant behaviour includes the frequent purchase of luxury goods and forms of debauchery. In the Romance languages evolved to have an exclusively sexual meaning. Although in the 14th century the word lost it sexual meaning and lust was the new word for it. Lust or lechery is usually thought of as excessive thoughts or desires of a sexual nature. This sin is still the same now back then compared to know is that you wont die from sleeping with your neighbor's wife, well at least legally.


Gluttony surprisingly hasn't changed. I will take a guess that the reason is it a good word that hasn't changed and can mean different things. Now gluttony is the over-indulgence and over-consumption of anything to the point of waste. In the Christian religions, it is considered a sin because of the excessive desire for food or its withholding from the needy. Now there is different types of gluttony. I was a little surprised lol. Praepropere which is eating too soon, Laute eating too expensively, Nimis eating too much, Ardenter eating too eagerly, Studiose eating too daintily, and Forente eating wildly.

Avarice/Covetousness/Greed wow it has a lot of names. Greed is, like lust and gluttony, a sin of excess. However, greed as seen by the church is applied to a very excessive or rapacious desire and pursuit of wealth, status, and power. Greed is very simple and hasn't changed so i am not going into farther detail.


Sloth the work has not changed although my meaning has. I believe both of them are right but hey whatever. Sloth in the olden times meant the failure of utilizing ones gifts or talents. In modern time it referrers to being lazy and indifference.

Also something of note some instead of Slot say Acedia or Despair. Acedia is not to care for something that you should. it is consider depression without joy. Despair is the precipitating cause of suicide, cause the feelings that come with it are loneliness, hopelessness, and pessimism. Despair was suppose to be mental and faith, where Acedia is more physical.

Wrath/Anger/Rage really they all mean the same thing. The uncontrollable and inordinate feeling of hatred. Wrath in its purest form is shown with self-destructiveness and violence. Wrath can manifest in different form which include impatience, revenge, and vigilantism. Although in it purest form it can be shown with self-destructiveness, it is the only sin not associated with self-interest and selfishness. Although one can be wrathful for selfish reason it is closer to the sin of Envy.

Envy is a lot like Greed and can lead to wrath. Envy can be defined in a couple ways i like this one, a desire to deprive another of theirs. Although it is also know as sorrow for another's good. The reason Envy and Greed and different is the Greed relates to more material goods where Envy may apply more generally. Also Envy is the feeling you are lacking something there forever everyone should lack it.

Pride/hubris is considered the original and most serious of the sins. I believe is it can lead to any of them. Hubris is the desire to be more important, attractive, intelligent, and so on. The idea of more because you are better then others. The story you can relate this sin to is the story of Lucifer, his pride was what caused his fall from heaven. By competing with god. He was transformed into Satan.

There we go my post on the seven sins once again.






Thursday, January 6, 2011

blog blog blog

quick recap on my last blog and so on, i am finally able to control feelings again and able to move on until the next time Corrine and i date....

So i feel as if i am becoming more anti social. Not by choice i think i don't know. i am forcing myself to hang out with people and talk to people. Really what i want is too lock everyone out right now. I don't want to go to coop, work, and hang out with friends at the moment. I don't want to deal with my family. I just want to be alone and think. But i know that it is wrong of me to do such things. Therefore i make plans i talk to people. I work, i go to coop. I try to deal with my family.

Now i will be hypocritical here and after telling Nicole that she should have had two different posts cause things did not relate i will do the same.

So on sunday i might have a date with Michelle, i am not ready for a relationship still, thanks to Corrine but i am getting there. I don't know how i feel about Michelle. What makes it even more like blunt is that she asked me if i liked her. i don't know. But i need to date again, i need to talk with people. so this is like killing two birds with one stone. I did like Michelle i know that. i might still feel the same but cause of Corrine I don't know. Although i don't think Michelle likes me. like that so i don't know why i am stuck on that thought.

Also Shannon and i are a lot closer now. We are even slightly flirting now. Although it is different then how i normally would flirt it is still cute. It makes me happy tho. Her and i talk like all day about everything and nothing. I wish i had more free time so i could attempt to go on a date with her.

My next blog post will be about the seven sins again. i want to redo it. I don't want to relate it to relationship this time either. just what they are as the dictionary describes them and the bible, then my view.

Friday, December 31, 2010

FIRST LABEL

Now is just like every time and know just like then I am hurt. Now feeling worthless and untrusting of others; that I want to trust. you do you do this. Better question why do i let you knowing whats going to happen, I jump for it hoping it will be different. but every time no matter how much time passes it ends the same.... I just want you to know I love you and once you how much I care and that no one is like me. That I am right here. That I have gone though so much for you and will go though so much more. Maybe I will find someone else and they will realize what they have. They will make me happy they way you can. They say you have three great women in my life and I know your one of them. Which means I have two more but I don`t know if I want them. Or at least i don`t want them right now. Cause for some crazy reason i still believe in you. I still want you. Even though all you have done in the end is hurt me. The moments you have made me smile and happy mean so much more. I just want to get this off my chest maybe I will feel better, maybe this will help me move on. Once again all i want you to know is that i love you Corrine and that you have impacted my life in such a massive way. Just wish you could fully understand.

Monday, December 6, 2010

110 but like that matters right

anyways in answer to my last blog post i was right. we are dating and it is going to suck cause i can't see her until like next week cause i work weds to sunday and like i could ask her to hang tomorrow. but like i seen her the past 3 days so i don't want to sound clinging and like annoying. but at the same time seeing her at cadets sucks cause we are both like super busy and like can't talk and at cadets we can't show anything anyways. so yeah

Sunday, December 5, 2010

why.. i don't understand.

Ok this blog post could be too early for me to rant. but i need to vent so too bad.

So for people who read this and know me. You guys know that i really liked Corrine and she is the only person i have given a second chance to. But it didn't turn out well i was favoring and she liked someone else. YET it has come back again. that we like each other. I am willing to give her another shot. WHY... i don't understand. I never give second changes she was the first and now she is the first to get a third. Like do i love her? i really don't know. All i want to do when i am around her is hold her. keep her close and talk about anything. But the fact has not changed she hurt me the first time and the second time i kinda was like its not going to happen and i was into Kayla more and Corrine was into Jared more. so how will this third time play out. like ugh. i get to see her tomorrow and i said we need to talk. since she text me saying how she wanted to kiss me. after we were like semi cuddling. IDK. thats why this blog is early cause after i talk to her tomorrow hopefully i will know whats going on

Thursday, December 2, 2010

College

Well yesterday Dec 1st, i went to my coop seminar and got to see a whole bunch of people. Which is nice, the seminar itself was funny since i kinda just left and didn't do work. since i don't need too. I went to guidance and got some green or yellow paper idk. Either way it ended with me applying for college. So i applied at Mohawk college, the fennel campus for pretech. why pretech cause i was lazy in high school and didn't grab grade 12 math xD. Oh well it will shorten my second year when i start computer engineering cause i will already have a lot of the credits. Besides i never do things the easy way anyways. if it will talk longer hopefully i will learn more. Since i am not a genius or smart. I have to work hard for everything. so maybe longer the better.

Then i went to work 4 to cl(11) and Nathan was working. Always fun because we have the must fucked convos. This time it was about how we need to blow up A&W, we were planning it out then your supervisor walked by and was like WTF. SO yeah is A&W blows up i am sure Nathan and i will be to blame. We also were talking about an magnetic car system. that you have cars made out of light material and only the plates are metal and have a magnet to pull the car. There were alot of flaws and we decided that the light power pod idea was better.